As a mom on this untraditional journey, I gotta tell ya...I am always struggling with the guilt (I know, no surprise there!) of not "doing" enough church stuff for my kids. I think stupid things like "are my kids really going to know enough about who God is and being a part of the body by not being in a 'church'?". I know, of course, that going to a building on Sunday assures NOTHING regarding these two things. Then I think more legitimate thoughts like, "Moving around a lot makes it more difficult to connect with believers immediately, how can I encourage this connection for my kids?" I'm instantly reminded that the Holy Spirit is much more powerful than an institution at bringing connections. Then, I think very interesting thoughts like, "Is my faith big enough to inspire a true relationship with Christ in my kids?" (Without the crutch of the institution, I am forced to actually live the life...I don't always like this!) And then, I am reminded of probably the most rational idea in all of this, that really it isn't up to me to "make" my kids believers. Surely, I have a giant influence on how they view religion and God, but ultimately, I (AND institutions, for that matter) are completely powerless to convert anyone. The practice of family church always brings me to that...trusting God...not trying to make things happen...waiting on the Holy Spirit...and how seriously needy I am.
So with all that in mind, I was pleasantly suprised by Skyler at family church yesterday. Mitch said it's time for church. Skyler left for a minute and then came back. He sat down on the couch and said, "I can't think of anything." We were a little confused; "What do you mean?" we asked. Somewhat pensive, he replied, "I can't think of anything to do for church." We told him that he didn't have to do anything, of course.
What struck me is that, he assumes that he will contribute to "church" whenever we gather. How cool is that! I am not saying that he wouldn't be learning valuable things in traditional church, of course. You know I love "church" in whatever format, but how cool is it that he has the foundational belief that when he does participate he is willing to participate actively in the meeting. I don't think he would have gleaned that so much from another format. Needless to say, I was reminded to trust, trust, trust...God continues to teach my babies even in the midst of my chaos, failures, and in the simplicity.